You’re standing at the threshold, suspended in air, waiting the moment of fall...then something reaches out. It grasps you, catches you, holds you still for just a moment, and then slowly turns you elsewhere.
It is the moment of change. A second chance. A rebirth. From the moment you turn, a new life, unknown and untraveled, waits for your first steps. Fear grips you, and apprehension threatens to overwhelm you. Tempted, you almost look back, but that same “something” halts your head. There is no going back. You know this. That road leads to a long abyss. It leads nowhere. At the moment of what seemed to be destruction, you allowed yourself to be turned to a new path. This is your hour. This hour that determines the rest of your existence.
Your decision, has determined your destiny.
It will be scary, and you will make mistakes. There will be many possible turns, and countless opportunities to walk back the way you came. It won’t be easy. Sometimes you’ll seem to walk alone. Sometimes, you’ll doubt your choice. Don’t doubt. Don’t turn. You are no longer walking alone. Someone is there. He’s holding your hand, and He will carry you if you are weary. Keep following that “something. “ It turned you to Him.
After a while, you’ll know what saved you. You’ll recognize the “something.”
Joy awaits you. Joy you’ve never before known. Can you feel it calling? It’s already beginning to embrace you. Miracles thread there way throughout this path. You’ll discover beauty beyond your dreams. You’ll encounter angels, and kings. You’ll find sanctuaries. You’ll find home. Trust me. I’ve seen them. Trust Him. He’s made them with His hands. They’re waiting for you, and you’re on your way to embracing all.
Do you know what it is yet? Do you recognize the “something”?
Inside you’ve felt the stirring. It was painful at first, you turned away from it. You were scared. Then slowly, over time, He touched you here and there. He was there. Watching. Waiting patiently. You began to be open. The loneliness of where you were overpowered the fear of what laid ahead. You allowed it to reach you. You allowed it to save you. You had faith. You had courage. You let it turn you, and you trusted.
You know what it is now. You’ve always know, because it’s always been there.
Love.
Love of a King who knew your pain, and suffered for you. He suffered with you. He was waiting for you to see Him. Hear Him. He saved you. His love saved you from the fall. He knows you. No reason to hide, no reason to fear. He’s never going to let you go, just hold onto Him. Hold Him...You’re His. He ransomed you. For your sake, He gave all. Don’t fear Him, just trust Him.
Every time your knees touch the ground, His love will touch you. Every time you cry, His ears will hear you. Every time you laugh, He will smile with you. In darkness, His light will be yours. In light, He will provide it all. Let Him be your source of strength, and you’ll discover this destiny...He will crown you His.
Friday, October 28, 2011
Thursday, September 8, 2011
Come Home
I have been contemplating much on the idea of hope…hope for a future unknown, hope for love, hope for joy, salvation, and hope for every desire of our hearts. Hope. It is a word used flippantly, but holds so much power. How many of us truly hope? How often do we ignore the bitter darkness of lost dreams and focus above on the ray of light illuminating our hopeful future? Too little…too little.
I used to wallow in the dismal expanse of circumstance; only seeing the wasteland of shattered pieces lying about me never once looking above to see the sky clearing and that silver lining giving way to glorious sunrise. Like so many, I focused on the things I did not have and the things I was not able to achieve. I tried to remain happy, but it was a losing battle; faith was shaking and I was slowly breaking. The winds cried around me, screaming “Why? Why me? Why can’t I be happy? Why do I deserve this?” Why, why, why? That’s what I constantly fought against.
Then, one day, a ray burst through the clouds. It was brilliant, blinding, and filled me with warmth. While I basked in its illuminating glow, I was able to forget where I was. It no longer mattered! I had my ray of sunshine and I was warm. I was joyous. Without thinking I slowly followed that ray of sun as it led me through my troubled path. There were times I strayed from its’ reach, but I was always quick to return. The more I concentrated on the sky the more I noticed the clouds dissipating, replaced with beautiful sky. Eventually I was able to look around…and my world had changed.
The barren wasteland had transformed to a green sea bursting with colors and life. A blue clear sky spread from horizon to horizon and the sun beamed its dazzling light across the expanse of my world. Everything was lush and vibrant, radiating joy and happiness. It was intoxicating and welcomed me in with open arms.
I find myself in tears as I wander in this amazing world. There are mysterious paths here and unknown terrain, but I do not fear them. My sun stills illuminates those roads. There are places, too that are familiar and inviting. I often spend time in each of these, content to let time happy roll along, in no fear that I’ll miss anything while I enjoy my moment. And yet again there are shadows of distant memories, my past world still lingering here and there. I don’t dwell on those. There isn’t much light, so I don’t see the point. I walked and learned all those roads and I will not return. I found my light, and I will go wherever it reaches.
I found my hope. Through the darkest most miserable point in my life it was able to give me a ray…a glimmer. My ray was Christ. My glimmer was His words of peace. I latch onto Him…and as I focused my attention on His warmth, the clouds became thinner and I slowly followed Him to a new place. His light opened my world, and in that world I have found everything, everything I could have dreamed of. But it started with that ray of HOPE.
“Hope guides us it’s what gets us through the day and especially the night”. I love these words. If there was more hope in the world, sadness would decrease, loneliness would flee, and love would abound. If people hoped more and mourned less, each life would change for the better. The end of the journey wouldn’t be an end, but a glories opening to a new beginning.
I know that there are so many who will read this and feel there is no hope for them. In theory it is a nice sentiment, but in there reality, no clouds are breaking, and no rays are beckoning. To you let me tell you, the key to the clouds is this.
“Whoso believeth in God might with surety hope for a better world, yea, even a place at the right hand of God, which hope cometh faith, maketh an anchor to the souls of men, which would make them sure and steadfast, always abounding in good works, being led to glorify God.” –Ether 12:4
Believe in GOD. Believe on His name. Believe the Father of your souls and the creator of all things would not leave you abandoned and alone. His light will reach you if you but cast aside your doubts and fears, whatever they may be, and seek out the light behind the clouds.
No matter you pain, no matter the hurt you face, He will comfort you. The Savior felt those pains, He is ready to succor.
No matter how black you past, no matter how deep your sin, He will forgive you. The Savior has already paid for those mistakes, He is ready to welcome you HOME.
Come to him. That is my plea. This is your hope. By looking upwards and seeking for him, you will find His light beckoning you on to a better world.
I know so many who are standing where I stood…who may be even more lost than I was.
Come back. Come join me. There is Hope for you; there is light and joy beyond your wildest dreams. Don’t stay lost in your own state of self-loathing, of pitty, of anger and depression. Find that light. It is there, I promise it is there. It will come to you during your “trial of faith” if you but seek it and welcome it.
We are not alone.
We are loved beyond measure.
God and His Son love us more than we can imagine and they are waiting to welcome us home.
This is hope.
I used to wallow in the dismal expanse of circumstance; only seeing the wasteland of shattered pieces lying about me never once looking above to see the sky clearing and that silver lining giving way to glorious sunrise. Like so many, I focused on the things I did not have and the things I was not able to achieve. I tried to remain happy, but it was a losing battle; faith was shaking and I was slowly breaking. The winds cried around me, screaming “Why? Why me? Why can’t I be happy? Why do I deserve this?” Why, why, why? That’s what I constantly fought against.
Then, one day, a ray burst through the clouds. It was brilliant, blinding, and filled me with warmth. While I basked in its illuminating glow, I was able to forget where I was. It no longer mattered! I had my ray of sunshine and I was warm. I was joyous. Without thinking I slowly followed that ray of sun as it led me through my troubled path. There were times I strayed from its’ reach, but I was always quick to return. The more I concentrated on the sky the more I noticed the clouds dissipating, replaced with beautiful sky. Eventually I was able to look around…and my world had changed.
The barren wasteland had transformed to a green sea bursting with colors and life. A blue clear sky spread from horizon to horizon and the sun beamed its dazzling light across the expanse of my world. Everything was lush and vibrant, radiating joy and happiness. It was intoxicating and welcomed me in with open arms.
I find myself in tears as I wander in this amazing world. There are mysterious paths here and unknown terrain, but I do not fear them. My sun stills illuminates those roads. There are places, too that are familiar and inviting. I often spend time in each of these, content to let time happy roll along, in no fear that I’ll miss anything while I enjoy my moment. And yet again there are shadows of distant memories, my past world still lingering here and there. I don’t dwell on those. There isn’t much light, so I don’t see the point. I walked and learned all those roads and I will not return. I found my light, and I will go wherever it reaches.
I found my hope. Through the darkest most miserable point in my life it was able to give me a ray…a glimmer. My ray was Christ. My glimmer was His words of peace. I latch onto Him…and as I focused my attention on His warmth, the clouds became thinner and I slowly followed Him to a new place. His light opened my world, and in that world I have found everything, everything I could have dreamed of. But it started with that ray of HOPE.
“Hope guides us it’s what gets us through the day and especially the night”. I love these words. If there was more hope in the world, sadness would decrease, loneliness would flee, and love would abound. If people hoped more and mourned less, each life would change for the better. The end of the journey wouldn’t be an end, but a glories opening to a new beginning.
I know that there are so many who will read this and feel there is no hope for them. In theory it is a nice sentiment, but in there reality, no clouds are breaking, and no rays are beckoning. To you let me tell you, the key to the clouds is this.
“Whoso believeth in God might with surety hope for a better world, yea, even a place at the right hand of God, which hope cometh faith, maketh an anchor to the souls of men, which would make them sure and steadfast, always abounding in good works, being led to glorify God.” –Ether 12:4
Believe in GOD. Believe on His name. Believe the Father of your souls and the creator of all things would not leave you abandoned and alone. His light will reach you if you but cast aside your doubts and fears, whatever they may be, and seek out the light behind the clouds.
No matter you pain, no matter the hurt you face, He will comfort you. The Savior felt those pains, He is ready to succor.
No matter how black you past, no matter how deep your sin, He will forgive you. The Savior has already paid for those mistakes, He is ready to welcome you HOME.
Come to him. That is my plea. This is your hope. By looking upwards and seeking for him, you will find His light beckoning you on to a better world.
I know so many who are standing where I stood…who may be even more lost than I was.
Come back. Come join me. There is Hope for you; there is light and joy beyond your wildest dreams. Don’t stay lost in your own state of self-loathing, of pitty, of anger and depression. Find that light. It is there, I promise it is there. It will come to you during your “trial of faith” if you but seek it and welcome it.
We are not alone.
We are loved beyond measure.
God and His Son love us more than we can imagine and they are waiting to welcome us home.
This is hope.
Saturday, March 26, 2011
Feelings
I didn't know what else to call this post...it isn't very descriptive, and I guess I could say that what I'm feeling right now isn't easily described either.
I'm engaged officiallly now, and the wedding is in 2 and 1/2 months. I can't wait until it is here and over. The stress and pressure of these last months is maddening. It will be nice to feel like I can breath again. Don't get me wrong, the planning is a ton of fun! It is simply the rest of the worries and struggles that come along with being engaged are wearing on me.
I guess that is why all the rest of what I'm feeling is dragging me down more...things that I'm usually able to deal with, are all just rubbing me the wrong way. It's so hard because I feel trapped. I don't know how to express what I'm feeling, and I wish I did. I'm torn as well, because I know I shouldn't complain...but I don't know what other way to get this off my chest.
Life is so full of drama it seems. Leaving Florida didn't take that away, and neither did getting engaged. It still followed and has simply taken a different form...and is working double hard to pull me down. If it isn't one thing, it is another. I guess the key is learning how to not let it affect you at all...and I'm definitely not at that point yet.
I feel that I'm in uncharted territory and that I've stumbled. Few times, and even lost my way. At least the Lord is there...I'm so grateful for that. There is Another feeling....gratitude for the blessing of my Savior and the atonement. What a miracle in my existence.
Man...I feel so scattered brained...this is the most random post.
Let us just say, I'm still figuring out the journey. Falling in love didn't end my problems or stop the lessons coming my way. I simply have new ones, and need do find out how to handle them soon.
Somtin Girl
I'm engaged officiallly now, and the wedding is in 2 and 1/2 months. I can't wait until it is here and over. The stress and pressure of these last months is maddening. It will be nice to feel like I can breath again. Don't get me wrong, the planning is a ton of fun! It is simply the rest of the worries and struggles that come along with being engaged are wearing on me.
I guess that is why all the rest of what I'm feeling is dragging me down more...things that I'm usually able to deal with, are all just rubbing me the wrong way. It's so hard because I feel trapped. I don't know how to express what I'm feeling, and I wish I did. I'm torn as well, because I know I shouldn't complain...but I don't know what other way to get this off my chest.
Life is so full of drama it seems. Leaving Florida didn't take that away, and neither did getting engaged. It still followed and has simply taken a different form...and is working double hard to pull me down. If it isn't one thing, it is another. I guess the key is learning how to not let it affect you at all...and I'm definitely not at that point yet.
I feel that I'm in uncharted territory and that I've stumbled. Few times, and even lost my way. At least the Lord is there...I'm so grateful for that. There is Another feeling....gratitude for the blessing of my Savior and the atonement. What a miracle in my existence.
Man...I feel so scattered brained...this is the most random post.
Let us just say, I'm still figuring out the journey. Falling in love didn't end my problems or stop the lessons coming my way. I simply have new ones, and need do find out how to handle them soon.
Somtin Girl
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